puppy love } { of subterfuge and reconciliation

[arbalete]

Allison: [makes her way to the library after class and claims a table, just wanting to get this over with. she still doesn't know how to deal with any of this, but she definitely has questions for Kate]

Derek: [and he will be there soon after, and putting her book in front of her] Thanks again.

Allison: [looks up with a small smile] No problem.

Derek: [goes to sit across from her] So, what do you want to do with this project?

Allison: We could split up the different headings?

Derek: We could. [and they can talk about the project a bit]

Allison: [yep, and get everything all split up]

Derek: [and once they are finished this bit] So um... how have you been?

Allison: [she shrugs] Really confused.

Derek: I'm sorry.

Allison: Why didn't you tell me Stiles was there?

Derek: ... I didn't think it was relevant.

Allison: Well, it wouldn't have just been your word against Kate's.

Derek: [shrugs] I didn't want to get him involved. It wasn't about him.

Allison: [sighs, running a hand through her hair]

Derek: [looking at his book] I just didn't want anyone getting hurt because I liked you.

Allison: Except me.

Derek: And me.

Allison: Why does Kate even care, anyway?

Derek: [he licks his lips] I don't know why she is doing this, but I know your grandfather and my parents don't get along when he was here last time.

Allison: I haven't seen my grandfather since I was three.

Derek: It was a long time ago. I don't remember it, just what I was told.

Allison: [sighs] None of this makes any sense.

Derek: [he could say what it really was, but it would just confuse her more] I know. And what sucks is that none of this is about us, it's all about them and whatever happened between them. Not about us and now.

Allison: So what do we do?

Derek: [bites his lip] I've really hated not being around you. But it'll piss my family off if I am.

Allison: Apparently it's the same for me.

Derek: ........ But if they didn't know...

Allison: You're saying we should sneak around?

Derek: We could. I mean, if you want to.

Allison: [glances back over her shoulder] I don't know if that's a good idea.

Derek: Probably not. My uncle is a creeper and would find out pretty quickly too.

Allison: So why even bring it up?

Derek: Because as much as we shouldn't... I miss you.

Allison: [she watches him for a long time because she misses him too. but she isn't sure if this is worth it] I'll think about it. [and she'll start to get up because they've finished their school work]

Derek: [and he will go to pack his bags as well] I guess I'll see you tomorrow.

Allison: Yeah. Guess I'll see you then.

Derek: [and he will toss his bag over his shoulder and go to leave the other way]

Allison: [and she will just take herself home, lock herself in her room and not know what to do]

Derek: [and he will head home, and after a bit in his room he will text Allison] Do your parents check your phone?

Allison: Not really?

Derek: We could just talk through this. We don't need to be near each other at all to do this.

Allison: I guess not. Hopefully no one will catch on.

Derek: We could change each other's contact names. Like you could rename me to Miguel or something.

Allison: Miguel.

Derek: And you could be.... Buffy.

Allison: Buffy?

Derek: Yeah. Something totally not you.

Allison: Thanks. [that's not a good thanks] I'll have you know I could probably kick your ass.

Derek: I was thinking like fluffy cheerleader. You're not like a fluffy unintelligent cheerleader.

Allison: Oh.

Derek: What were you thinking?

Allison: I don't know. I'm not really good at subterfuge.

Derek: Bad idea then.

Allison: Maybe we could just have them be "D" and "A"?

Derek: That works too.

Allison: Then that's what we'll do.

Derek: [and he will change her contact to A] Done.

Allison: Me too.

Derek: I'm glad we're talking again. But we can't really at school. Cora already has it in her head that I like you more than I care about her.

Allison: That's ridiculous.

Derek: I know, but I don't know how to tell her that. I mean, she's my twin sister, so you'd think she'd know that I love her more than anything.

Allison: She probably knows, Derek, but you can't take that for granted. Sometimes you need to show her too.

Derek: I'm trying to.

Allison: If she catches you doing this, she's not going to see that.

Derek: No, she's not. Though lately she is spending most of her time with Stiles now.

Allison: She seems like she's happy.

Derek: She is. I just don't know if she feels it yet. Cora and I can be polar opposites. She's the brain, I'm the heart of the pair.

Allison: I don't think she's the type to keep doing something if she didn't really want to.

Derek: No, she's not. But I mean, it's more like feeling different. How liking someone makes you feel... special?

Allison: Maybe it does, but she doesn't understand it yet.

Derek: I know, and it's not something I can show her. She has to learn it for herself.

Allison: She will. Give her time.

Derek: So um... before we... well, I pissed you off... we were good, right?

Allison: We’re good.